So Unhappy.......

oh my

i am so unhappy

my side hurts so bad and

i can hardly walk......

i hate my life right now

i hate me right now

waaaah

i think to myself.....

what would make me happy????

i don't know

i worry about becky

i worry about mandy

i worry about jenny

what/how could i be happy???

i used to be happy when i sewed.

the passion of sewing something

was wonderful

what has changed?

i liked to sew when i was alone

and when it was quiet

i haven't enjoyed sewing since

i was in wisconsin and i had

just discovered patternreview.com.

i made all of that stuff for Madison

so much fun.....

now

how/where could i sew and be alone?

out in the kitchen??

no,

where i am right now would be the best.

time of day/night???

i keep thinking that i should sew at night....

and sleep during the day???

i only need 6 hours....

i feel like i am going crazy

is it the hydrocodone???

is it being a prisoner here????

maybe both

all i know is that i am incredibly unhappy

all of the time